I think it’s time to retire kontansplace. It has served its purpose and is now simply something I post to occasionally b/c it has been a part of my life for so many years. I have time to make the decision. It is sad to see it go, this journal of life that I have kept for years now, but life is taking a turn…for the better I might add…and I don’t need the blog to have an outlet. What to do? What to do? First, I must figure out how to not lose all that I have posted. Time to enlist the help of friends who get their geek on just a little bit more than myself.
Just after Christmas we headed to AL for family time and relaxing together. The drive down was uncomfortable. Sitting for 7+ hours makes one achy…or at least that is what I attributed it to. As usual the first night in AL my sinuses act up, but this time it seemed to settle in the center of my chest. Takes some meds and ignore it. SG and I head to the Shoals for some us time while the girls enjoy being spoiled by my aunt. I am still very sore from the ride, but ibuprofen is my friend. It is rainy and cold, but we managed to see a few favorite places and have a nice time together. As long as I kept ibuprofen in my system I wasn’t too bad off. The second night in the Shoals was much worse than the first. I was up every hour and could not get comfortable. Once back in B’ham I was harassed into going to the doctor.
O. M. G.
We arrive at the doctor around 1:30 and almost NINE, yes 9, hours later I was seen by someone who may or may not have finished med school. For nine hours we waited in a VERY cold waiting room. The fever started about hour six or seven, just before I was called back to the individual waiting room. In the individual waiting room the fever soared. I was tired, cold and felt awful. The nurse swabbed my brain through my nose so she could do a flu test. After a long wait the doctor comes in and said I was positive for the flu. Crap. I’m staying in a house with a cancer patient who just finished a year of chemo, radiation, surgery and more preventive chemo. This is not a good scenario. I’ve had symptoms for days but the doctor prescribed tamiful anyway. Yeah, a rather expensive co-pay and no chance it will actually work because I didn’t start it in the first 48 hours. Nevermind. We decide that we have to leave for NC the next day b/c we couldn’t risk me getting worse there or SG becoming symptomatic and not being able to drive home.
On the way home I was not awful. Just tired. The aches had subsided and the chest was ok as long as I didn’t cough. Once home the cough started getting worse. We had a relaxed new year’s eve, and I went back to the doctor today. It was a much different experience. We were in and out within an hour or so. The respiratory situation is residual from the flu and I just need to keep it under control so that it does not turn into something worse. So far, I’m lucky. Functional as long as I do not over do it. I keep my inhaler nearby and am maintaining. Tonight I have happy cough meds to help me sleep.
How’s that for a happy new year? SG is still not showing symptoms, but we put him on the tamiflu. We are eating Airborne vitamins like skittles. That stuff can work miracles.
Regardless of the start, I am excited for 2013. Big things they are a comin’!!!
So much. School is a fast paced chaos as we get close to break. The ex wants girls to meet his gf. They both said not interested, but it will probably be forced upon them. Strange, with a gf he asked to spend more time with them. Kids rolled their eyes. Oldest said no thanks, and the youngest said well, if a gf is what it takes…(trailed off) I really wish they would be honest with him about their frustrations, but they don’t want to be hurtful. It’s sad. They see SG visiting his kids almost daily, calling them every evening and comment on how involved he is in everything they do. They wish they had the same. I will have to try to reassure them about the gf meeting. Hopefully he will have sense enough to take it slow and not force the issue. Maybe it will make them feel better to know she is a history teacher too. Can’t be all bad.
Sigh. That’s not all that is on my mind, the teen has a bf. Yay. -_- OK, so I am glad for her, but I don’t totally like it. I like that she is comfortable with inviting him over and spending time with him at the house instead of always wanting to go out. But it’s a bf! Eeeek. She’s growing up.
What else? SG. He’s always on my mind. So amazing. So supportive. Such a delight to have around. I love his positive attitude and outlook for the future. He is so special and I am so thankful to have him in our life. Not to mention he is so much fun and makes me feel spectacular. Glad the girls love him as much as I do!
AP video to make and grading to do, guess I shouldn’t be blogging. Off to be responsible…
Kids are hanging with their dad on his bday. SG is taking his kids for rides in his new toy. (I’m not sure if it is for his enjoyment or theirs, but I’m sure it is fun for all.) I’m chilling alone, cleaning the office. Ahhhh. Alone. That is something that doesn’t happen often. I kinda like it!
We had a great Thanksgiving day with SG’s parents and his youngest two. My first dressing and sweet potato casserole attempt was a success. In fact I am finishing off the dressing today and am thankful that when I made it I froze some for later. So yummy. It was really awesome to sit back and watch the kids interact. They really seem to get along. It is exciting to see our circles come together. We have described this relationship as a venn diagram. We each have lives and responsibilities and then we have much that we share. For the longest the separate parts have been the largest. With each passing day our venn is growing closer to becoming a circle. There will always be the separate parts that we have to deal with, but at the end of the day it is the together that will lead to good night. What a journey.
According to my life360 app the girls will be home soon. Looks like Christmas decorating will be the plan for the evening. I’m not ready yet. Must suffer through. Tomorrow, another pretty day and I plan to enjoy it outdoors on a long hike with SG. Last one of the season I think. Life looks to be a little crazy over the next few weeks. Have to say, I kind of like it like that.
I am seeing a man who devotes himself to those he cares about. With his kids he has three scheduled days every week and another every other week. He also steps in on the other days if they need him for something. When away there isn’t a night that goes by where he does not call, ask about their day, and sing a silly song for them before bed. He would (and has) drop everything if I need him. My girls can call him with a question or request. His parents seek his advice and when they need him to come over for something as silly as fixing their Christmas lights because a strand doesn’t work, he is there. Completely selfless.
So what am I SMH head about? Amazement at who SG is. Sadness that my own kids do not have the same experience. In the future, when they look back on these years I hope they will see how hard I have worked for them and how hard I tried to establish consistency and normalcy in their lives. I’m exhausted, need a break. It doesn’t look like that is likely to happen. Regardless, I want my girls to be happy and will strive for that every day. SG is a shining example of put all the crap behind you and keep pushing forward with a smile. Fortunately he keeps me smiling too.
It’s all just steps. One foot in front of the other. Keep the pace. No rush. Life will happen with or without you. You might as well try to live it and make it the best…besides, no one gets out alive.
This day seemed so far away, yet the year flew by. So much life has taken place. I don’t know what to think about it all. I do know that I am ready for the next phase and this one took too long. I don’t know why NC has to draw everything out and leave 366 (367 for leap year) days for tension to build. AL takes 30 days. Other states too. I think that is a too little time, but it is certainly more reasonable than a year and one day before you can even think about filing. Ridiculous.
The process has started. I don’t know what the future holds, but I am learning to take each day as it comes. Patience is a must. So is a good workout. Great tension relief.
So what do you do with a new camera and a new car…put it together. No interest in car play. Ok. Lie. Slight interest in car play. Ok…maybe a little more than slight. There is a really cool auto barn nearby that has old cars and new. The passion that these car guys put into it is rather amazing. Regardless how little I truly know about the subject, I am fascinated by the artistic craftsmanship that is offered in each vehicle. I also find the history behind each car rather interesting.
Why am I hanging out at an auto barn? It’s where SG stores his new toy. We took it out this weekend for photo fun. It is quite photogenic. I thoroughly enjoyed the opportunity and think we were able to get a few really nice shots. A little Picasa manipulation and ping, I have photos to post.
The pics near the old building were at Kerr Mill and the street pics are in downtown Kannapolis. There are several other sites that I want to have him drive to. This could prove to be a new obsession. Car pics, woo!
I couldn’t have asked for a better first outing! FINALLY we were able to get the four youngest together and spend an afternoon getting to know each other. It was not without a hissy fit…but none of the parties present were an issue. Now or ten years from now it would not matter. Ex’s are not going to be happy with the situation. That’s fine. Just don’t interfere and we won’t have a problem.
It was the perfect day for a hike. Cool, but not cold. Comfortably warm with a nice breeze. (Thank you Sandy.) At the top the view was clear and amazing. We only planned to go halfway, thinking the kids wouldn’t want to or be able to make it to the top. (About 2 miles.) After the halfway view all four decided they wanted to keep on. Two dachshunds and four kids pushing along without complaint, we made the trek. WELL WORTH IT! The colors were stunning and the time treasured.